I didn't want to continue living for a long time. I fell into a depression state and no one cared to help me. They hear me, but i didn't want their help. they were ignorant and mean.
I recently got my first book published and was thinking maybe if anyone wants to see my website, maybe they could take a look here and maybe buy my first book. i have nothing else in my name currently. I need a life, but this world is hurting my soul and is willing to kill me. I seriously don't care anymore.
if thou wants to see my book, go here on amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Heavell-Yami-Sora/dp/1513638122/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1535761305&sr=8-1&keywords=heavell
or if you are in another country, i don't know.
Good day y'all
I came back earlier after doing some more driving practice. I got my permit a year ago and I did do some practicing before; only 4 times around a parking lot. It was fine, but this time I did some real road driving. the road was 35 mph. I decided to do 20-25 mph to practice. it was first scafry cause i never knew the place so i didn't want to go far. I got more scared when i saw a person atarting to tailgate me. I was lucky that a turn off was close by so i turned off and the car went far ahead. I turned around at a stop sign and said i would never drive again.
I can't deal with stuff on the road and at life.
March 17, 2017
Ey!
I am currently in a time of my 23 year old life that many people would say things like "I shouldn't feel this way" or "This is not the real you."
how do they all know all about this? How do THEY know i shouldn't feel this way?
Anyway, i'm living in a city with no job acceptions and with a family who doesn't accept my depression. they all think i'm making it up.
I feel this way because of the city and boring non-loving family i live in and with.
Oh well! i'll try to hang on to my life thread as long as i can while searching for the jobs.
The good news is that i actually got called in for my first interview. True i have gotten two otehr calls before but i kept missing the calls and they didn't want me after i tried to call back.
But this interview was for a job from 6pm to 6am. i accepted the interview, but most likely wont take it due to my sleeping problems and 12 hours seems too hard for a first time young worker with small heart and sleep problems.
Till next time - Keep Living!
Februrary 26, 2017
Sorry for those who go here hand haven't seen much stuff. I finally graduated college (CTC) spring 2016 last year. i was on the hunt for a job after that.
i currently can't find anything anywhere around my city. i feel like i should give up but my dad keeps pushing on and says you have to find a job here.
please try to pray for me to find a job soon.
August 22, 2015
Howdy everynya
I went ice skating for the first time today. It was dangerous and little bit fun. I went to Austin Texas to Chaparral Ice. Not actually expensive, only $6 for skating and $4 for renting skates. the skate blades were thicker than I expected, but the ice was more than I though as well. I fell down a little bit, but for a first time at 30 minutes, I thought I did an ok job.
Final verdict: I prefer to go roller blading than ice skating. Too different sports and roller skating is more fun and easier to handle. Not going back to ice skate anymore.
Howdy everynya
I tried to make a youtube channel this year and was having too much trouble. I was able to use my ctc google account, but there is limits I can do. I can't comment with it. So I made a page on this website below on the left to reply on youtube comments.
This account has the same title as the website: amborganization. the name has no significance to any organization. this is the first thing I could think of in the first place.
The website is https://www.youtube.com
/user/amborganization
I hope to see and here from others soon
thank you
Howdy!
I have finally been able to watch a movie I wanted to watch forever. It is called "Unfriended". People told me it was a great and scary movie. When I saw it, I was so bored for 75 minutes. The only startle I got was at the beginning when she shot herself due to being so loud. However, I laughed and tried to act like it was scary. It did have some tense moments, yet I gave it a 1.5 out of 5 stars. The original Poltergeist was more scary. I still get alarmed with the clown doll. That was still too creepy.
Hey Everybody,
I came back from the dentist with a root canal. So soon I shall need to receive a cap for my tooth. I had another one exactually 1 year ago during spring break. That time I had just numbness on the tooth. This time I didn't want to go through all that hell like I did before. I asked to sedate me. It was not complete sedation. I was awake for some of it. I could hear people talking and I could go to dream land. It was basically between Stage 1 and Stage 2 of REM sleep. just to sum it up, I would rather do any root canal with sedation rather than numbness. Lastly, the dentist I went to was Dr. Allowitz and Dr. Ford from Killeen Texas. Both are awesome specialists.
I am reading The Moonlight Pegasus. Both are long, but Felidae is more towards adults then Moonlight Pegasus. There are two books that came out for Felidae. It originally was from German, but got translated to America. If one wants to read Felidae, be sure to be comfortable with disembowelment or blood and guts. The book is more gruesome than the movie. However, even the movie is not for children.
Good Day
I just thought I should tell about my experiences of being hypnotized. Lets just say it was kind of scary at first. I got hypnotized to be a cat. I couldn't talk at all. if I tried to let anything escape from my mouth, it ended up to be moans, groans, and meows. Once I woke up, I watched the video being took and it scared me. So no more hyposis for me anytime at all.
I have finished my first book: Felidae. There is a second book that was translated and is a sequel to Felidae called Felidae On the Road.
Since I don't have a twitter or facebook page, I though maybe this would be different and more fun to do. I have never had fun with people's facebook accounts.